RAMBLINGS
An all too ordinary story, with aftertaste so bitter
Forced to be someone I don't want to be
I'm losing myself... sinking deeper down
I'm caught in the world wound web
Monday, June 15, 2009
PLKN. Program Latihan Khidmat Negara also known in english as National Service Training Programme (NS = National Service). I got to know that I was choosen to join the NS training programme around bla bla after the mid term break of 2008. I was devastated upon gaining the news from the sms I sent. It went like 'TAHNIAH anda telah dipilih untuk mengikuti Program Latihan Khidmat Negara". They even could congratulate me for getting choosen. DAMN!!..I got no choice back then but to go for it......Well, at least I got some friends of mine who is in the same camp as I am..
19 March 2009, thats the day I depart from my family to Kem Bina Semangat, Kuala Kubu Bharu. I was really afraid of what the hell Im gonna face there. The people that Im gonna meet, friends, trainers and so on. I even thought that I would have a chance to encounter a ghost face on for the first time in my life!! Life was tough, at first with so many feelings going on inside of me and the gruesome fearsome way of the trainer that kinda give me the heat of tension. They were quite fierce when we first got there. The first week past as though a month had past. Time feels like its just crawling with the speed of 1 second per hour. I miss my family alot and I knew how much they miss me too especially my mum whom I always argue with before, I actually started to appreciate home even more that is appreciating my mum, dad, and my brother alot more than I usually do. Being a callow child in the family yet being disobedient and delinquent by fighting back words harshly that hurt them alot and being someone who just doesnt care is what I did alot before and I really felt so fucking bad and do not know how am I repent my sin towards it. I do not wanna be back the same ol' fucker back then. So I moved on by starting off in the camp..
I attended many classes there that is usually in the morning, ate six meals a day which made me gain 4 kg in a few weeks which is really alot for me. Gotta wake up every 5am from monday to friday and 6am plus plus on weekends. Gather for assembly every monday to friday morning at 6.30 am..We had physical activities in the afternoon including marching. In the meantime, I knew some friends especially and of cause my dormmates, 1 of my closest buddy is Elister Tan who is from Sabah is sleeping on the bed next to me, We usually talk crap and stuff when we really had free time for ourselves. I became his si foo of sohai-ness..hahaha..I became close to more people in my dorm as time past such as Ekram, Charles, our company leader Seelan, Emanuel, Hazrin and so on..and out of dorm, I met many more nice friends like big baby boy Aryton, Winnie, Ling (delta), Ping, Vivian the hyper, Chen Woon, Kelvin Low, Kelvin Chew, Kok Liong, Federik, Nun, Jasper, Ah Seng, etc etc and so on and on n on..But honestly, I was a very different person back in camp, Im not sociable at all, as in really really quiet compare to others whom they got loads of friends easily..oh, and Im from the DELTA company!!.YAY!!.
As time past there, we had ups and down in the camp, times we feel happy and times we feel sad and angry. Times we had fun, times we had to get down on our chest,. And many people start to leave and almost all my close buddies left on the month of May for colleges and stuff..Finally, the last week of the programme came, and then its 8 of June. We successfully completed the PLKN programme. Just like Suk Hwa once told me '..before you knew it, it will be over'..and yes, how do i not realise that time past really fast eventhough it felt really really slow inside. I came back and started walking the busy urban streets fill with transport and pedestrians and started questioning myself wether is this a dream, Im finally home..It felt wavy... Im catching up back with all I missed while Im in camp. I missed an important dates as well, my dad's birthday on the 24th April, first time Im not there at home with my dad when on the date of his birthday. I also missed her birthday on the 2nd June, which is maybe gonna be her final birthday in Malaysia, but Im glad she had her best birthday period and had loads of fun...
In the end, PLKN actually give quite a good experience and taught us many things and about how important discipline is in our lives. Like what Cikgu Faizul once taught us, a day always starts in the morning, if in the morning ur untidy and messy so you are gonna be that way for the whole day and so goes to life, when you start life in the beginning in a most unpleasant manner and indiscipline, so goes your life without discipline, in order and a good path. OH! and we learned new words too such as "sangap" which is the signature word of KEM KKB!!. I didn't expect myself to be quite positive after all the negativity in me. It just something that happens only once in a lifetime and only almost 3 months of your over 60, 70, 80 year of lifespan. KKB ARE YOU READY!!!!! =))
Signing off..
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