Embody My Oblivion

RAMBLINGS

An all too ordinary story, with aftertaste so bitter
Forced to be someone I don't want to be
I'm losing myself... sinking deeper down
I'm caught in the world wound web

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A GALLANT ATTEMPT TO GROWL SCREAM THE WORD "RAPE!!" 10 TIMES IN 1 SECOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Ordinary Story at Tuesday, June 30, 2009;

OK, heres the big deal about something said by a friend of mine that sounds uptight wrong to me and it start to make me feel so fucking weird when Im typing this thing. She said blogging is for attention seekers! Holy Muthafuck! I do it for the purpose of killing my god damn loads of free time now, my blog doesn't have anything personal, dn't really says what I do everyday, and I always speak of random, ok thats it..no more..I aint saying more man!..damn, Im really mortified by those words..neh, whatever!..HAHA!
There's nothing much to say here nor do I had any pictures to post, Infinite Terror is growing on well, just can't wait for it to publish its first EP or demo, and to perform in it's first gig and more and more! I gotta rectify if there's anything not right about it. It must be a success this time. Thrash till burning death! I always have pensive thoughts about myself, what am I going to do, what am I going to achieve. Am I going to be able to do what I want in the future? Time is ticking seconds by seconds in a blink of the third eye, there you go..Its already 30 years in the future and what have i done so far?.Stop being fucking pensive!
To forgive is to suffer, a song by Death, a very meaningful death metal with the most realistic straight to the point about life in this world. "To accept another day we choose, to give away another piece of life,to forgive is to suffer"
"Once or twice is kind, three or four is blind, it is not the end yet a way to begin,the power of words both good and bad." An ambivalent feeling flow right through piercing into the core of my heart to notice the fact that it is that forgiving a soul is increasing your tormented level in life. To accept again the apologies of somebody is to give away another vital piece of your life, you bare the pain and showing fake faces that you are happy and had forgiving him/her, but you are not, the grudges in you evolutionised into great contempt about that someone, you infuriate to the extent of unbearable heights..There, what have you done...Nothing is perfect in this world, humans are mostly sad beings if you look in a way that is more meticulously obfuscate for the naked mind..scrutinized yourself, who are you and what are you?..the inferiority that holds your free soul..that shall give you throes to perdition sooner or later..

Another Ordinary Story at Tuesday, June 30, 2009;

Thursday, June 18, 2009

The music scene within the chinese people, everyone knows how much of pop and love songs they do. They are so well known for that till many metalheads of other race and culture thinks the chinese just can't metal or they don't even metal at all in their homeland. Think again, china took 10 years to learn to play metal and to get themselve indulge into the metal music scene. Just 10 years, we might think they are still an amateur in it. Please do doubt that and witness for yourself the brutality and darkness in their world of the underground. Due to the government of china which is against that kind of music, it makes them hard to get them known into the world and kept them only within their space of oblivion till no one even knows they existed. But who give a fuck about it, darkness reigns in china hell alot more than the 18 level of hell than we expected. Thanks to those famous humans like jay chou, lee hom and the rest. They are what they are known as how they are known now, chinese are mostly lovey dovey poppishes and they can't metal hard. RIGHT? CHINESE just can't metal!..Do take a look at whats below now...this is actually who the chinese are within their dark emotions.. The darker side of china/hong kong/taiwan, that actually could make the country truely proud of themselves and be a massive part of the metal underground league in the world.. and my most sincere apologies if I hurt anyone with what I said earlier..thank you

Ritual Day, 1 of china's first wave of extreme metal, they played melodic black metal.

Tang Dynasty, China's very own first heavy metal band.

Frosty Eve, chinese melodic death metal.

Metal Wing, China melodic death metal..

Lacerate, China's Thrash metal!!!! Thrash til burning death!

Suffocated, China's Thrash metal!!!..

Beeline, China's Thrash/death metal!

Chaotic Aeon, China's death metal, OLD SCHOOL DEATH METAL.

Tiefutu, China's melodic death metal.

Ego Fall, China's melodic metalcore/death metal. Very folkish Mongolian sound! Chinese folk metal element!

Spring Autumn, China's heavy metal with folk influence, Kaiser Kuo the founder of Tang Dynasty is a part of this!

Empylver, China's folk/doom/black metal, very beautifully rendered music.

Midwinter, China's black metal.

Wrath of Despot, China's black metal.

Heresy , China's Thrash metal!

There are still loads and loads of it, too much to find, too much to hear, to much to see, too much to feel. Come to think of it, they are mostly thrash,death,black which kept them to the true roots of metal, it makes things way alot better than playing those typical trendy metalcore, hardcore and deathcore which is in very minimum amount in that country. Support the underground metal scene. The conclusion, THRASH/DEATH/BLACK METAL FOR NEVERENDING ETERNITY!!!!!!

Another Ordinary Story at Thursday, June 18, 2009;

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Randomly taking pictures for the sake of using up a few moment of my free time. In the meantime, I'm also trying to distract Irfan while he is driving with my handphone camera flash, JENG JENG, take that!!

- Random -

Another Ordinary Story at Tuesday, June 16, 2009;

Monday, June 15, 2009

Delta flag of kumpulan 2 siri 6/2009 kem KKB. DELTA SAKTI

DELTA!!!! GELAK GELAK DELTA!!

After the end of the closing ceremony...everyone start going around asking for contacts and taking pictures..

The almighty KKB marching field.... The place where all formal marching events is held including the marching competition.

Me and Ah Boy aka Chen Woon (our ajutun)

The majlis penutup board!

My dorm Q2, after successfully completed our task of cleaning and washing up our dorm..

FULL LORENG, Im gonna miss that attire..

On the night of the farewell ceremony..

On the way back home to putrajaya

Dorm cleaning washing soldiers, that sacrifice our life for the sake of our dorm cleanliness.

A view from my bed..

Nice patch of armpit hair, isn't it??

DELTA once more!!

Our obstacle course field where we did our kembara halangan competition.. Delta is 2nd, we got 2nd!!

Me and Ling, both of the same company, she and her gang just love to laugh at my cantonese slang, they gave me a nickname Ngau Keng and Chou Yeh.hahaha..See that look of mine that is suppose to be a dumb dumb look, Im trying to look bad in her camera. HAHAHA!

Me and Ngah Qi, shes my classmate in the Kenegaraan class, and she found out I could actually understand and speak some cantonese when we were both on our way home in the bus back to Putrajaya.

Our company candid picture, for the ones who is gonna leave soon in the month of May.

Same delta picture as above..

Group pic..

Ekram and me, one of my close buddy there, he is an extremely good dancer and a shuffler, can check out his videos in youtube by typing in 'ekkem' with his performance at an Interact Installation Night at his homeland in Sabah. Miss that dude!.

The stage in the hall. Dewan Makan

The trainers table and chairs where they use to sit and watch us when we were lining up for role calls

Me and Emanuel. We were on our night duty. And it was really sleepy that time and as I could remember, I didnt slept that night till 3.30am, The time I finished my shift. The only night I stayed awake that long. It was Emanuel last duty that time as he too was going back home early. And he is the camp KKB cube puzzle master!

A candid group picture when we were grouping up for the night's activity.

Me and Elister, my best buddy in the camp, the one that keeps me company when we were alone, talking bullshits and crap and becoming sohai more or less like how it shown in the pic above. He too went back early to continue pursuing his studies, and he is currently studying in KL, Im gonna getcha man!! The SOHAI PAIR WE ARE!!..HAHAH WTHFH@@!!!!!

Me and Winnie, the first chinese I spoke Malay with in the camp as it is far more easier for us to communicate that way. HAHA.. She was really really a nice girl and nice to me too.. Knew her in Christian night class which I smuggle myself into.. All the best to you in Sarawak.

A view of the cafeteria from the car, the place where I get my supplies of buns and buns and buns......

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The long road to the gate entrance of kem KKB..

The Commander and staff little chalet.

The Dewan Delima, where we had our registration into the camp, our thursday Buddhist night class, and the place where my family and I will sit and talk and eat the food brought by my family on the family visiting day every Sunday.

Chairs in the Dewan Delima..erm..for us to sit

The football field ahead and the mountains way ahead..

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It was the 4th day of the camp, and I got bald a couple days back in the picture. It was my first time in my life shaving my hair off to this extend. Just look at me how sour do I look in there, my precious hair =((.. T.T.. But Im still so called bald right now, quite used to it but still I want back my hair, I want it long and long.

Dark above, bright below, as above as below..

On the final morning in the camp, waiting for the time to come to get onto the bus for all of us to go home...

One of the sunday's that my family came to visit me. =DDD

PERBARISAN TAMAT LATIHAN

Listening and listening and listening and listeninggggg and listennninnnggggggggg.......zzzzzzzzzzzz

On mother's day celebration in the camp before we were to go home for our semester break holidays. Too much of XOXO, hugs and kisses from dearly beloved mum..

Watch the children pray....At the beautiful and scenic Kam Long Temple..

The dewan makan, far left is Alpha dining table, follow up by Bravo, Charlie and Delta.

A group picture of the chinese students on our last visit to usual near by temple we always visit on every ordinary sunday morning. in the middle is Cikgu Michael!!